Week 1: Arrival and First Impressions

November 12–19, 2025

Coming Back

Coming to the Clinic in Stuttgart  after so many years was overwhelming. The city carries my past within it—my younger ambitions, my restlessness, my hope. Coming back now, older and more fragile, but also I carry a pride of all the accomplishments.  I feel a mixture of nostalgia and grief but also curiosity about what this return might reveal.

Checking In

Sonnenberg Klinik, the psychosomatic clinic….this would have not been my first choice, in contrary. Never ever I thought I would come back to Stuttgart.  but after I saw a huge rainbow on my visit and meeting with the Dr. I knew it is a sign. 

It is a place for reflection, for slowing down, for looking inward—something I avoided for years. Checking myself in felt like surrendering to the need for help, to the truth that I cannot continue carrying everything alone.

The first few days were quiet and heavy. I felt the weight of the past year in my chest—the physical trauma, the emotional exhaustion. But there was also a sense of relief, as if I finally reached a shore I’ve been swimming toward without realizing it.